i'm back.

So much has happened in my life since I last posted. I love my new house, and the freedom that has come with living so close to work. I have gone through a time (too long) of being preoccupied with my physical circumstances - putting God on the back burner. I didn't even realize what I was doing. I was so busy with life, with new things, places, people. I really didn't even notice that I had stopped considering my spiritual needs - I was enjoying lots of new things - physical things, like a dining room set, a computer, a new house. Of course I can't blame the "things". But I am glad to be back. I needed to plug back in to my spiritual self. I was becoming dissatisfied with things - little things. I was easily annoyed and frustrated by the inconsistencies of others, and unable to live in the peace that God has given me. You know, that peace that makes life calm even in chaos, that gives love in the middle of hatred and rudeness. I found myself wanting to be rude back - even initiating rudeness when I was having a bad day. I had become so focused on myself, my need for "happiness", that I had no time for the problems of others. Oh, it has been a great Christmas. My greatest gift was from God who woke me up and reawakened in me a desire to know Him, more than pleasing myself. Things were entertaining and pleasing me for a while, but in my soul, I needed to seek God. It's going to be a great 2008.